insane in the membrane

i love how once you begin to allow yourself to relax and let God be God and you be you, so many opportunies crop up to be Jesus to people. Most of the time im calculating whether or not i 'should' talk to that person or start a conversation, becasue I'm Christian i'm obliged to or something. ANyways, i was on my way home and this older guy sits next to me and all im thinking is, GOd dont let Him talk to me, im tired, and i really suck at talking to strangers sometimes. SO low and behold the guy starts talking to me and im wondering if he can tell im trying to sink into my seat and look out the window. yeah sometimes i can act like i jerk! But the coolest part is that i started to relax-i realized i was in this conversation and i might as well enjoy it. We talked about Einstine's theory of relativity, he explained to me how photos are developed chemically (he's a photographer, he showed me some shots too!), we enjoyed the beauty of creation together and pondered out loud about how intricate and beautiful it is. The guy doesnt know what he thinks about God-or JEsus for that matter. But i got to tell him what i beleive. And even better, i got to show him in scripture where the psalms talk about creation (i realized that this is who i am, and once i relax in this, i totally do stuff like i did!). ANways, it was awsome. and since then, just being in my house and playing guitar, i got the privilledge of teaching my sister's boyfriend a worhsip song or two. I knew that when i was singing and we were playing, the Kingdom of God was on the move.

Times like these make me wonder why i still struggle so much with trying to be something im not. WHen i relax, let God do His thing through me, where Im at....amazing things happen...sure theyre no instant conversions for random strangers or whatever, but I know God uses those moments becasue those moments are His kingdom. Living a supernatural natural life. I tapped into that these past few days, and, well I want to live my life this way. God continue to set me free.

~have you ever been having a conversation with God about serious life issues and then all of the suuden in your head bursts forth the theme song from BEauty and the BEast?~