So, I was desiring to write a new post and I was thinking of all the stuff i could write about because a lot has been happening in this 'long walk to freedom' and i realized that, i don't really want to focus on me. I mean, yes this is my blog for sure, and i love to share because i believe what God is doing in my journey has the potential of illuminating the path in your own journey and teaching you things that He longs to share. I believe strongly that we need to learn from eachother as much as we can-to be constantly learning and growing. So i want to share a bit here but then i want to hear from you, to learn from you.I want to hear about your journey, your 'long walk', your process of becomming (or not becomming for that matter) a passionate lover, friend, daughter, son, of the Living God.
"Be the King of this heart" -Matt Redman
Lately, i have been undivided and not responding to the call of my lover's voice. Oh i hear him, but i do not heed. I do not boast in this, i only share out of humility because my Father has shown me the error of my ways-painful i must say. but all the same, beautiful because in my suffering, in my dying to self, i am becomming more like Him.
I was reading in His word tonight, about adultry and how Jesus blatently states that if your eye causes you to sin, gouge it out. Whoa settle down there Jesus, goodness isnt that a little violent!! But Christ knew and knows what sin does to us, it holds us back from the Father. He says to be serious about your sin, don't be flippant with it. Understand that He has grace yes, but if something is causing you to sin, cut it out of your life. Why do we put up with sin so much? Why do I put up with it in my own life so much? He says we shall have no other gods before Him and He means it-He wants all of us, not just a little piece. And holy crap does He ever understand our struggle, but He's saying I want all of you, Maria, I want all of you and so be it if it takes you your entire span of time on earth-i want all of you, i long for all of you.
I've had to let go. I've had to let go of the one thing i can remember longing for alomost all my life. It has taken me so long to actually hear God, but I do now, and Ive chosen Him. It hurts like nothing else I've ever felt, or imagined-and yet, amidst the tears, the agony, and longing of these recent days, yes, these very strange days - He has been my steadfast love-He always will be. And I choose to exalt Him, not because I'm so great, but because He is great, and He's making Himself, His goodness, great in me.
So today, Abba, Lord of my life, I ask you, in faith, to be the King of this heart. And in my suffering, in this choice to deny myself, i will wait on you. I will continue to believe in faith that you are doing this great work in me. Becasue, you are love.
There is a snippet of my journey. Share with me, allow me to learn from you.....this is a long walk to freedom....but oh what a glorious freedom it is.
dancing in grace
maria
"Be the King of this heart" -Matt Redman
Lately, i have been undivided and not responding to the call of my lover's voice. Oh i hear him, but i do not heed. I do not boast in this, i only share out of humility because my Father has shown me the error of my ways-painful i must say. but all the same, beautiful because in my suffering, in my dying to self, i am becomming more like Him.
I was reading in His word tonight, about adultry and how Jesus blatently states that if your eye causes you to sin, gouge it out. Whoa settle down there Jesus, goodness isnt that a little violent!! But Christ knew and knows what sin does to us, it holds us back from the Father. He says to be serious about your sin, don't be flippant with it. Understand that He has grace yes, but if something is causing you to sin, cut it out of your life. Why do we put up with sin so much? Why do I put up with it in my own life so much? He says we shall have no other gods before Him and He means it-He wants all of us, not just a little piece. And holy crap does He ever understand our struggle, but He's saying I want all of you, Maria, I want all of you and so be it if it takes you your entire span of time on earth-i want all of you, i long for all of you.
I've had to let go. I've had to let go of the one thing i can remember longing for alomost all my life. It has taken me so long to actually hear God, but I do now, and Ive chosen Him. It hurts like nothing else I've ever felt, or imagined-and yet, amidst the tears, the agony, and longing of these recent days, yes, these very strange days - He has been my steadfast love-He always will be. And I choose to exalt Him, not because I'm so great, but because He is great, and He's making Himself, His goodness, great in me.
So today, Abba, Lord of my life, I ask you, in faith, to be the King of this heart. And in my suffering, in this choice to deny myself, i will wait on you. I will continue to believe in faith that you are doing this great work in me. Becasue, you are love.
There is a snippet of my journey. Share with me, allow me to learn from you.....this is a long walk to freedom....but oh what a glorious freedom it is.
dancing in grace
maria
posted by Maria at 9:04 PM
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Prayer for Maria:
God as you speak to Maria, show her and tell her more of the plans you have for her. What is the glorifying outcome of this purging? She may know it partially, but show her more for You are the One who can do exceedingly, abundantly mroe than we could ever imagine. Bring her from glory to glory climbing the staircase that leads to Your very heart. amen.
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