all my words were bound to fail

missing you

There's no one to sing my bad opera from the bathroom to
No one to be the target of plastic utencils for
No one to have fake yealling matches with
No one to watch me dance like a silly idiot
Or to hold me when I break down
Living alone a'int all it's cracked up to be!

Once again I have learned the valuable lesson of not realizing something amazing until it's gone. But I wouldn't have given it up for anything. My heart has started its melting process and I'm on a journey in learning to love with the greatest teacher as my guide. How can I fail?

Thank you for making me humble enough to accept this kind of love and for teaching me about what I truly long for. I crave community, I long for relationship, and it's all becasue of you. If it weren't for your beautiful mercy I would still have a hardened heart and would be drowning in pitiful lonliness. But beacause of you I can expereince true love, lasting relationships, and the unity that family and community brings. This is my heart becasue of you. I don't even know who I am anymore becasue you've transformed me beyond recognition. Now help me to take the next step....to expereince this with all people that I meet in my lifetime. I want no less. No matter how much it hurts....becasue this pain is more beautiful than anything I've ever expereinced. Take me out of myself, and make me a slave to your love. I want to be loved furiously by you becasue it is this kind of love that makes me do the crazy things my heart beats for. And some may call me crazy, but hey, if that's the price I have to pay.....